birthdays are celebrated for many reasons, for many private reasons,

and many little reasons no one really has to know but yourself.

i didn't really celebrate, i guess i just let the day ass, like it was just another day, I honestly did not even enjoy going to Tondo for a reunion, I wasn't ecstatic for anything, I basically sat at the salon chair getting my hair brushed and treated while holding my cellphone in one hand, tending to the loving friends who remembered my birthday, I got myself a new tote, that's just the icing on the cake, but later in the evening I started realizing that as I put on the numbers in my life, and after realizing that I will not get any younger, I found out that I was becoming more sensitive, and more like my real self, a more caring, more concerned, more outgoing, a more mature me. I realized that my previous year wasn't really a waste, I did accomplish a lot, big or small thing, they're all relevant one way or another. I guess getting old is about responsibility and learning how to enjoy your responsibilities.

I figured I really need to go, and find people and mingle and celebrate everyday like it's my birthday. I need to go fishing for new things, for new people and separate the good ones from the bad ones, make the people worth keeping feel loved, and just ignore the rotten pieces of God's creation be. ( I assume God made them still. They just did not have the mind to be more like created by God)

But for now, though bitterly I grasp the small bad truths about stuff. I am grateful and thankful to those who I met last year, and stayed with me altroughout, those who plan to stay not because they have to, but because they want to, glad that I have people who will forever love me kahit na ganito lang ako, rather.. dahil GANITO AKO.

I need not mention who those people are, for they know who they are.

and for those who fucked up my life last year and the previous years before. Fuck you all too, To hell with you all. haha. I am not wishing you people bad, I'm just not wishing you guys well.